Feeling Like a Small Child

Sometimes, I still feel like a child.

I think about what someone that I look up to, someone that's a mentor or that's been in something a lot longer than me, does or did and I think, Man, I want to be like that. I often wonder how I can do something like that. 

Let me give a 'for instance.'  My mentoring teaching for my elementary student teaching experience was AWESOME.  He was just amazing.  He's a great teacher and had a plan for my student teaching experience that really taught me well.  One thing that he had down was classroom management.  I know I'm a new teacher, but I don't feel like I have that down.  I feel like the more fun the kids have in my class, the more out of control they are, which means the more I have to control them, which means the less fun I have and the less real teaching I get to do.  But, the point is, he had this way of getting everyone's attention.  It worked in the classroom, it worked in the cafeteria, it worked in the gym, it worked at assemblies... it worked everywhere and for all grades, K-6.  Now, I do have grades 7 and 8 as well, but I will tell you:  it's not really working for me.  Now, I do have to mention that he had been teaching at the same school for a long, long time.  So he had the kids somewhat trained.  I will give it some time.  This is really what I need to do, period; give the kids time to adjust to me and to get used to it, and take extra time re-teaching.  I forget that they're not doing it 8-9 hours a day, 5 days a week.  They're with me for 25 minutes, 2 times a week, or if they're middle school, 40ish minutes a day, 4 times a week.  So they will need re-teaching.

But I do feel a little urked, and a little bit like a kid again, when I have things like this that I saw an "adult," or veteran, doing, and I can't get it right, or I can't figure out how to do it my own way.

What throws you back into a child's mindset?